MY STORY

Nice to meet You, I'm Brittany Marie

I have created this space to share thoughts on the evolution of consciousness, energy work, spirituality, healing, self-love, forgiveness, cultivating compassion, and self-realization to name a few. I’ll start by sharing what lead to this path.

The Calling

Soon after high school, the calling to pursue a career as a psychotherapist became clear & there was a certainty that I was meant to be of service to others. I began working in human services 14 years ago and attained a graduate’s degree to practice as a psychotherapist and specialized in trauma. I served in that role for nearly nine years and studied a wide range of healing practices to adapt to varying needs of supporting the self-development and healing process.

In 2015, a series of family traumas, family deaths, & the emergence of suppressed childhood trauma occurred that led to being on the other side of trauma & working to overcome post- traumatic stress. It was the second most painful point in my life aside from tragically losing two close family members in a car accident at a younger age. During this time, the ego was trying to hold on for dear life to what was, to what it knew, & how it knew itself regardless of how self-destructive & toxic this was to the self.

The Catalyst

That time in my life marked the first Dark Night of the Soul & the experience of existential crisis. The egoic mind was reeling with confusion, doubt, separation, pain, & misery. However, little did I know, this pain was going to be the catalyst that welcomed a profound shift within awareness and a spiritual awakening would sweep in with intensity yet also a gentle grace. Before that could happen though, I hit a point of losing the will to live & at this time it felt as if leaving this world was the only way to be alleviated from this pain. However, this loss of will lead to a quiet space of deep surrender. The pain was so great that the ego was finally no longer willing to hold on to what it knew out of familiarity, that was going to be at the cost of itself. I began praying intensely calling out for God to help me, to have mercy on me & show me the truth of life & what was causing this suffering & to be alleviated from it.

The Awakening

Suddenly, it felt like time stood still, there were no more thoughts or emotions & in its place was pure presence, peace, bliss, silence...God. I went to lay down on our Hammock in the backyard and was watching this hawk swoop back and forth across a pillowy cloud back drop & started witnessing many truths of the Universe pouring into awareness & it could be remembered the empty nature of thoughts & emotions, the illusion of separation from Divinity, the illusions of death, & the source of suffering being the thinking mind and how through silence one will find the Truth again... one's Self, Peace, & Union with the Divine. This bliss state lasted for a couple of weeks & I began using words like enlightenment, spiritual awakening, the evolution of consciousness, conscious expansion, etc. which were never a part of my vocabulary before. I wanted to tell everyone what was felt, known, & perceived on a level that cannot be explained so they could remember too and be alleviated from the suffering of the mind. The naivete at the time, did not realize, awakening doesn't work by word of mouth unfortunately. After a couple of weeks of this peaceful presence, human perception arose again & took the place of this enlightened state of perception and challenges returned although there was a new level of understanding of the greater meaning of what pain is and how it can be used as a fuel to seek for Spirit. In the fire of pain & awakening, the spirit was found, and the mind & body would be forever changed; from this, a new Will, Intent, & Devotion to relentlessly seek for Healing, Self-realization, the Truth, & God Union came over me. The quest for enlightenment & the hopes of helping others find the same meaning, purpose, and peace felt, was life's new purpose.

Kundalini & Shadow Work

A few years later, I learned of Kundalini Awakening from a blog article that was a synchronicity for what was to come because little did, I know, this would be the next spiritual experience that would be prepared for & unfolding within the next few months. I share on this in-depth, so if you would like to hear how that unfolded, you will find links below to my spiritual awakening journey. With all that said, these moments of self-realization do not eliminate suffering, the need to heal from our past, old conditioning, & even from past lives. These awakenings require us to do our shadow work and lots of it in order to know the self, accept, love, & forgive the self, & seek to realize one's own Divine Nature & the interconnectedness of all life. Awakening is just the beginning & much of the spiritual experiences are not these mind-blowing moments but the small moments of presence, realization, & acceptance. Shadow work has been continuously focused on along with supporting other's in doing this work within consciousness to Enlighten themselves as well.

Life Purpose

Around 7 years ago, I noticed a dream of sharing on YouTube about the spiritual but wasn't sure what exactly I would share about or if this was the ego looking for attention & recognition. But the dream has stayed alive and has been pressing since then. I had a successful full-time private practice that was attracting spiritual seekers from all walks of life & with different takes and experiences around it. The clients I was working with taught me so much and expanded my learning more than I can say or ever thank them for. I thought my forever career would be counseling & I tried to figure out how I could share spiritual insights in my off time but creating content is no joke and a full-time job.

I wasn't sure how I would be able to do both paths but low and behold the Universe threw me a curve ball and I had major challenges to navigate in my professional career that led to burnout and taking a year sabbatical to recover and integrate what needed to be learned...cue the second Dark Night of the Soul. I felt lost again, deep within the throes of a sense of separation and the illusions of the ego. However, this was a difficult but beautiful redirection that helped me heal at levels I didn't know needed healing, but this also freed me to pursue this new calling to share what has been learned from working with others & on myself to heal over these last severals years.

Holistic Healing

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Healing work also began expanding beyond a mental health framework into spirituality, meditation, & energy work which led to leaving the field of mental health and clinical work to pursue this holistic framework of spiritual integration, self-discovery, & healing. I am so excited to share this with others and all that my clients have taught me & what we have learned together to seek to meet our highest potential of Enlightenment...Healing, Acceptance, Peace, Love, Joy, Presence, & Union.

My hope of sharing is that it will bring insight or comfort to other’s who may have shared experiences and different considerations to help with healing, integrating a spiritual awakening, and cultivating faith in this beautiful mystery we find ourselves in.

If you would like a more in-depth look at the unfolding of my spiritual & kundalini awakenings, you can find that here in these two blog & video posts.

Spiritual & Kundalini Awakening

Kundalini Awakening: A Story of Transformation & Discovery

Spiritual & Kundalini Awakening

My Personal Journey of Spiritual Awakening: From Trauma to Transformation

When I am not doing work within consciousness or sharing on the evolution of consciousness

I am spending time with our pure-bred Angel Dogs Khalia & Axl (who we feel is the re-incarnate of our past pup Champ which I plan to share more on that story in the future😊).